BODOH ! BULL SHIT !
no guys ever make me like this, OMG !
What's wrong with you, Jill. What's wrong with you, you can't concentrate to your work, you can't concentrate to anybody else.
Jill, nothing wrong with you, may be you just think about it too much.
No, Jill, something going wrong with you. May be in your head. No, in your heart. You love him so much isn't it?
No.
Yes, you are.
But, why?
I also don't know. Touch your heart and feel what are you thinking. :)
No, I'm sick. Because of this presentation, tomorrow would be English Studies Presentation and I'm not ready.
You lie, Jill. You are absofuckingly lie. Lying is sin.
Yes, I tell the truth.
Wait. You had cried when Chin dated and kissed another girl right?
Yes. So fucking what?
Nothing :)
You bullshit, just tell me.
No la, but remember? You were disappointed but you force yourself to cry :)
So what la.? Bodoh.
Don't call me bodoh la, you stupid. You're now crying so badly. Because of the same guy? :) NO..
You're even turn to this page than do your work because of him.
Can't you just shut up? Up to me la what to do.
I don't criticized you, I just want you to realize things in life.
What on earth is that thingy?
LOVE.
What so amazing is that thing? Yes, I'm in love now. I have boyfriend.
He is your first love right? Your boyfriend now.
What in the sam hill are you talking about? Do not pretend like you're not me and do not pretend that you don't know anything.
Yes, I indeed tell the truth. I think you don't love Chin actually :)
Haa? Are you crazy or what? I spend most of my not-too-beautiful lifetime talking about him and mentioning his name. Even with my boyfriend now. -___-
YES, no one can't deny that. But, what the purpose you talking about him? Just to make your boyfriend jealous right? :)
WHAT!!! NO. OF COURSE NO.
HAHA, Jill, Jill. Do not deny things. Want me to tell you everything even from the very start?
WHATEVER.
Ya, you love chin. But not really love :) You always force yourself to cry when he did mistakes because you're not really care.
-___-
Yes, you are, my stupid dear. Know what?
WHUTS you nut.
Oh, don't call me nut because what I'm going to tell you something that will makes you look real nut.
OKAY, WHAT THE THING PRINCESS NUT?
If you really love Chin, you won't move out from the very amazing school. And he's the reason you went out. You had then went to a very strict school and you had then forced to wear the very panas baju kurung instead of skirt. WHICH THE ATTIRE YOU LIKE NOW. BECAUSE U'RE NUT.You could have to leave him, how could you to do that, but why? BECAUSE YOU DON'T LOVE HIM. ==
Hey! Watch out your words please. But ya, I can feel the truth in ya. A LITTLE BIT >.<
Want me to tell ya more? When you know Chin dated someone when you in new school? What have you done? You succeed to chill yourself and manage to rise up right? Now, don't ever twist my words.
OKAY, I'M SLEEPY.
You haven't finish your LS essay.-__-
Buat la ni..
Is it clear? And it is, the things I would like to tell you know.
Apa lagi niiii?? I'm fucked up. Quick finish your words.
You real in love with your recent boyfriend.
Yala, so what.
I mean real in love. Different from your former one.
Okay.
Stop it Jill. You know the truth. Put yourself in my shoes. Walk into my life. Put your hands in my chest and feel each and every single of my heartbeats. You fucked up like dying just because he doesn't text you. Serve you right, it's your fault because you only know to merajuk :)
It's his fault! He look down upon me when I get started, when I get motivated! When I started to fix everything! And one more thing, You = me. Don't ever ask me to walk into my own awesome life.
You know he never text another girl, he loves you one and only, he such a very kind guy. Don't hurt him Jill, if we see thing barely, you don't even deserve to have him. He deserves a very beautiful and kind girl. And the most important is woman who loves him more than you do.
I love him so much :'(
That's the point. You love him so much. You get jealous even though he doesn't do the things. That's mean you love him so much. He is your very first love. Erase Chin Yuen Nen in your life and never restore him again :)
The slight feeling has gone, FOREVER.
Yes, now I got you back my dear nut. You're pure Jill that I know. Go and move your life.
But..
But why nuts?
My boyfriend doesn't understand me, it seems like he never know me, my feelings. And I'm so curious that he will find others.
Give it all, give all your bewilderment, your uneasiness, your feelings to GOD. And I surely can't answer your perasaan ragu2. Ask Edward for that for he know everything you want to know. For now, best of luck. I go to sleep first.
Okay, goodnight, I want to finish my work first. Have a nice dream, Alice.
I MISS YOU.
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