For: YOU.

I guess I wanna live life like this. I don't wanna care too much about him anymore. I don't want to get jealous. And I just want to live happily with my friends, classmates, family and the most important is my Christian life. I want the old Jill back. :) I'll think about serious relationship in next 5 years :) Now, focus on my study first ! Want to enjoy and live my life to the fullest before someone that I might love so much in the future share everything with me :) But for now, let me do everything I want :D ,without anyone hinders my desires :) I don't want people complain and criticize what I'm doing, whether it is good or bad. Don't judge me, I don't want YOU to judge me unless You're the one who died for me and forgive all my sins with the Precious Blood. :) I think you should think of your actions first before you look at me. Let me be what I want. 


And if you love me, stop controlling like you're already my husband.


 If you love me, let me do what I want to do, let me go where I want to go. 


If you really love me, you will wait me up to whenever, may be up to million years? 


If you really love me, you won't get angry even I be friend with your worst enemy. 


Know why? Because if you really love me, YOUR LOVE over everything. No one and nothing can reach up to your love. But when you got angry, YOUR ANGER over everything. When I do something you don't like, now UNTRUSTWORTHY take over the place of your love. 


Yes, question yourself. "Am I willing to wait for you as you request? Am I all this time make you happy? Am I all this time made you feel uneasy, feel uncomfy" Ask yourself. 


You're actually in bewilderment. Stop the unfairness lies in you. Stop commenting what I've done and what I will do. 


Hey you, it just because I never complain what you do and what you participate in your life. Because I simply know CHOICE is very important in life. When you give choice to a person you love in life, he/she would be happy throughout the day, months and perhaps the incoming years. It's all about that. Giving simple things in her life would brings many happiness in return. 


Let it makes a simple lesson to us. Wish you luck in your next relationship, give her tender love and understand her figurative words. Girl is the most complex "creature" on earth which very complicated to understand. However, your love is the key to everything. Your love is the key to her heart. Give her a chance and appreciate her. She might be stubborn and ego, but that is simply because she loves you, one and only. She might not showing that she loves you very much, and she cares about you but deeply in heart, she does. That's girl. They don't simply show things when they really do so much. And instead, she might showing that she lets her chatbox on over the night and day. But actually she only wants get some attention from you. She actually feels annoyed when unknown text and chat her, pretending that they have known each other well. She actually the happiest person in the world once you chat her and ask about her. 


Get to know her. Understand her more. Understand her by heart instead of appearance. 


Love her because she will love you more, more than anyone else does, more than you do. 
Trust her, when she try to avoid you, give her time. ANGER won't count much. Give yourself time to calm down. Give her time to miss you and text her back. 


The most important things is, UNDERSTAND her and BEAR IN MIND that this species is very fragile at heart. Hold them carefully with your love and care.


There's always hidden meaning in women's language, when they say, LEAVE ME ALONE, they actually say I NEED YOU SO MUCH, GO AWAY means HUG ME and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH in I DON'T WANT TO LOVE YOU ANYMORE.


When you think you have done good in your previous relationship, think about it once again, when you say "I'm changing for you", THINK ABOUT IT. She will shine once your changes push the switch. Meaning to say, her happiness is clearly shown if you really change. But if she's not, there something goes wrong.


I pray for all of us and God bless your next relationship, as long as you're happy, so do I :)




                                                                                                                                 alicegenevievejr